thank god. i swear, i think i would die if it wasn't for the fact that we only have 5 more days to wake up. i can handle that. :). one more day to wake up this week and i am completely okay with that.
well, i guess i'm currently married to my crush, and he's spreading that around :) haha. whatever. i really hate that i like him, because he's GAY!!!! wtf? how do i fall for a GAY guy? i dont understand it... i guess maybe it's because he's become one of my closest guy friends... man, i like him, and i'm going to try the trick that mrs. miller taught us about the pupils, i'm wondering if he'll use it on me, because he knows that i like him... :)
well, i'm gonna go, i'm hanging out with emmah and allen.
Peace. :D
Hey,
sorry, but i'm off and on to a new adventure for the summer, se ya next fall!!!
love
KL.
Знакомство с Джос меня очень радует!Я ей давно симпатизировала.Видно,она думающая личность.Надеюсь дружба с ней у нас получится."Заочно" я знаю Джос почти два года.Была симпатия,но было и то,что мы немного недолюбливали друг друга.Еще бы!"Общий объект обожания" и полное отсутствие "информации" друг о друге;)...Странно ...но такое случается!Уважение и раздражение!Сейчас,когда "объект" отошел в сторону,раздражение ушло вместе с ним,осталось уважение.Будем узнавать друг друга поближе.Взаимный интерес.Думаю ,нам будет о чем поговорить!
so im doing really well in school (homework wise and grade wise) but friends...one of them talks to the other about me with another friend (not really friends anymore) and then one is being a major brat all because of a stupid sport (we dont text anymore)!
i dont know what to do. my rents fight all the time. my sister is getting sicker (if thats a word?) by the minute (today she passed out while i was handing her her meds, scared the bajeezs out of me. no idea when or if she's getting another heart surgery). i only have like to or three friends and crushing on the same guy as one of my best friends. my phone and computer are a peice of poop, my best best friend lives in ohio (stupid boy), im growing farther and farther away from my dad, my siblings never want to be outside with me anymore (so i have to ride the quad by myself and pitch the ball to myself. oh well) my mom doesnt even care about my grades or that i made honor roll the whole year of school or that i got accepted into a music program camp thingy for summer..............
you can message me. i'll read it. but if i dont feel like replying, i'll just delete it.
Ну вот!:)...Ты ждешь меня!Подожди,потомись немного:)...Я безумно скучала и скучаю!Ты будешь моим...но это вопрос времени...главное -выдержать!Я выдержу!Ты того стоишь!После тебя нет и не будет путей отступления,ни "побегов"...Ты пока этого не знаешь,хотя...иногда мне кажется,что ты меня чувствуешь больше,чем я себя вообще знаю!
Ты стал моей "болезнью"..."Легкая простуда" грозится перейти в "хроническое заболевание":(...Почему так долго?...так долго я не нахожу сил� просто жить без тебя?...Наверное все дело в том,что мои предчувствия� относительно твоих чувств ко мне,всегда оправдывались...Но я не в силах вести эту "немую беседу"...и в то же время -боюсь прекращать ее...боюсь потерять тебя...Еще пару месяцев...Если поездка состоится,значит все встанет на свои места...Еще чуть-чуть...чтобы потом не терзать себя за наполовину пройденный путь...Ты такой "сложный" !Ума не приложу,как мы нашли друг друга...Ты знаешь -я как огонь...Тебе удалось,то,что никому никогда не удавалось!За тобой остается последнее слово!
Patience.. is it truly a virtue?
Is it?
Can it be.. i mean ive waited for 2 years for the last guy i really wanted to be mine..
he comes to a realization 2 years later...
its been 2 years since ive been with him....
for 2 years hes waited on me..
love is such a crazy word for something that causes so much pain..
so much anger.. and grief..
so much stress...
hate..
hates sounds more appropriate..
love is cruel and evil..
i refuse to waste more time....
i was totally happy with wasting my time with a man that would never commit to marriage.. because i didnt plan on getting married anytime soon..
and for the most part we were living happily together..
now im living a nightmare..
i get looked at like a vagrant..
he cooked me breakfast...
im not sure if that was just cause he was up cookin..
or because he wanted to...
my heart aches so bad i want to combust..
i think time away will do me good..
hes doing what he wants to do anyways..
he always has..
its me..
that has learned patience....
its me that has learned.. heartache..
i felt better just blatantly being betrayed because at least that guy flat out told me..
i think its the trait of a coward.. who cant discuss thier feelings and let other ppl know what was going on.
But its clear.. crystal..
as always i have a very clear path that im going to take..
i will not deviate..
i have gone too far off course already..
all because of a man.. who had a hole in his heart..
that i wanted to fill..
but hes left me heartless..
i woulda took just the hole..
but the absense completely.. has me thrown.
im off balance..
i have to find my balance again..
i need to put my feet back on solid ground...
time will tell..
who knows..
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